This is how I disappear.

You're Not Sorry - Swift, Taylor Alison

All this time I was wasting
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances every time
And all you do is let me down

And it's taking me this long
Baby but I figured you out
And you're thinking we'll be fine again
But not this time around

You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore

And you can say that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no, no, no, no

Looking so innocent
I might believe you if I didn't know
Could've loved you all my life
If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold

And you got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
Cause it's worked each time before

But you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore

And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no, no, oh
You're not sorry, no, no, oh

You had me falling for you honey
And it never would've gone away, no
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade

So you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There's nothing left to beg for

And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no, no, oh
You're not sorry, no, no, oh
No, oh, no, oh, no oh
Whoa, no, no



Just thought that at the way things are going, this song would soon be what I've to say. Of course I wouldn't wish for this song to come into reality.

Another night feeling the same.

Just recovered from a 39.3 degrees fever.

Been feeling lesser from you by alot these days. No idea what could be the reason. I will just get shut off by you if I mention anything again. So yea. Shall stop here.

Missing you to the point where i double clicked my iPhone home button to bring me to my lisst of favourite contacts list. And I tried calling you. Only to realise you are in HK.

Why must that dumb typhoon hit on your return night. Sigh. Be safe.

16th July

Sorry for not blogging yesterday love. My laptop was down. The day was spent with me being on time for school and doing alot of work through the whole day! Went home straight after school with Alston and stayed home for the rest of the day. Nothing much for this day.

17th July

Woke up late for school and went to the IT helpdesk first thing to get my laptop fixed. Now it's fine and working already! Had a UT after school and I'm gonna fail again. I'm quite sure. Went home with FG and WK after school and we went cycling again! from 9+ till now. I just got home. Hehe. We went to Gombak for prata. And we are gonna head up to woodlands next friday! Finally eh!

I hope you are doing well in HK right now. You will be back in less than 24 hours. I will see you soon! Love you. :D

Wednesday 15th July

Decided to blog abit everyday so that love would know what have I been doing while she was away in HK.

Woke up past 3pm today and went to change my bike tires with WK. He bought paint for his bike as well and we came to my house to spray his bike. FG finally got his bike so we all met up in the night to cycle. Went to the Tuas checkpoint today and got screened by police officers! Got home at 1am?

Training to go up to woodlands. I will work hard okay baby. Hope you are having fun in HK. Remember my iPhone accessories!

I miss you. Good night.

Been cycling alot recently with my bros after they got their bike. Been to many interesting places which I had been wanting to explore yet lacking the means of transport.

Places like deep into the LCK cemetry or pandan reservoir are now reachable by our humble bicycles.

Of course, it would be even better if FG were to get his own bicycle. :) Pictures would be available on my facebook profile okay. Lazy to upload any.

Anyway, 2 days back on the wednesday, it was WK's turn for his birthday. As usual nothing special from our group but just a simple dinner. Attendence was rather disapponting as well. But I hoped you still enjoyed your 19th dinner with us WK.

Remember now that you are 19 years old, make your decisions wiser based on everything the happened in the past few years. All the best. :D

One part I would want you to be what you are, the other I want to be selfish.

But no, I would not put you through this. So the latter is not going to work anymore.

Need a break. Been tiring enough these days after school resumed. And I want you to be by me on bed asleep.

Sai-ai.